I tried to measure myself in your eyes. I never knew who I was being compared to, so I always tried to be the best. I gave you too much power, always wanting to be all that you desire. The pressure is heavy now, in truth it has been for far too long. It’s […]
Tag / Psychology
I remember you sweet girl. So lost. So alone. I felt everything that you could not and I held it deep for you. The suffering could not touch you then, for the weight of the pain and sorrow would have crushed you. I held it off of you. You turned to everyone that should have […]
The ones she had stayed for, now left her behind.
Scrolling through lines of words, looking for a blank space. Staring at a blank space, trying to find the words.
I am here amongst the words. A jumbled mess, a line that flows. Perfectly me.
She drew colors so vibrant that strangers smiled at her brightness. Her laughter came out as giggles between grins. She trusted wholly. She held no mysteries, nothing to reveal. It took only an instant to diminish the light in her eyes, the masquerade of her life had begun.
Can I tell you something? Cry. Deny. Justify. Shut down. Please, I need to talk about this. Cry. Deny. Justify. Shut down. I needed you to help me. I was so alone. Cry. Deny. Justify. Shut down. The cycle of abuse continues round.
I am the voice thought never to speak. I am the strength mistaken for weak. I am secrets brought forth to light. I am the day awakened from night.
The bright sun brings resolve, you are gone. You will never reach my soul again. You are there smiling, in the darkness behind closed eyes. Killing me all over again.